Ethan at One Month

* This post was meant to be published back in early December 2015, but blogging had to take a backseat with everything going on. Read on and you'll find out why :) *

Time does not only fly when you're having the greatest of times, it zooms past. It's like trying to keep water cupped in your hands but no matter how tight you hold on to it, it slips past your fingers. At 4 days old it felt like I was running after something, rushing to take in everything about him. His small toes, his soft head, his breath that smell of milk, his fragility. Ethan is now one month old. Very soon he will outgrow his newborn clothes, reach more milestones, and before we know it he's an active toddler that needs chasing around. It feels like I'm aboard a bullet train and the view is passing by me in a blur.

4 days old

It may be one of the benefits of having a gentle birth, I'm not sure, but Ethan is one calm baby. I was physically and mentally prepared to go through the newborn stage of waking up every hour at night to breastfeed and soothe a fussy one through baby wearing. The reality, however, was just the opposite. He wakes up every 2-3 hours to feed and I can put him back in his cot without so much as a wriggle. We put a small bed beside our queen sized so we can co-sleep, but so I can ease through the transition (Matt still sleeps with us), Ethan and I had to sleep in the living room for a week. He was also mostly asleep during the day and only wakes up to feed or when Lola Edna needed to clean him or give him a bath. His naps get much longer after that. He rarely cries, even now, and will just let out a small noise to let us know he's uncomfortable or needs something. I started to get worried that I won't get to use the baby wrap I borrowed from Matt's Ninang Sheilla. He's gone through the newborn stage that we only read about in baby books.

Lola gave me my first bath at home just like Kuya

Paaraw with Mommy

I wanted to bond more with him during the first few days so I tried to do Kangaroo Care. It seemed like he was not too comfortable in a tummy to tummy position though. He will not stay put unless he's really sleepy or I'm seated in a recliner chair beside the pool where we usually sun him (thank God the terrible haze was gone by his first week). I cradled him really close instead.

Cuddle time!

At one month Ethan can smile spontaneously. He can lift his head a little when you place him tummy down on your chest. He starts to focus on your face when you talk to him and his eyes can also follow if you try to move your head from side to side. He likes to be held and hugged in the cradle position with his tummy pressed against yours. He will fall asleep faster if you tap him lightly on his back and will open his eyes immediately if you stop. He stretches A LOT and will turn a deep shade of red. But swaddling still works for him at night, he can stay in it and sleep for 4 hours straight. Not all nights though because like most babies, his sleeping pattern is still changing.

Oh how I wish this stage won't have to end so soon. Before Ethan, posts on social media that say, "Don't grow up too fast, anak", sounded to me like such a cliche. Even with Matt then because I was so excited to see the boy he will turn out to be. But it's so much different this time. If only Ethan can stay this little for a bit longer. Don't you wish the same for your little one?